Smiles, Tears, & Laughter.

So Its been awhile since I've posted and I'm Sorry. Well Tabby tap was last Saturday and it was really good too see every one together and happy. The day of Tabby tap my mom had bought this angel thing to stick in the ground and it looked just like Tabby, it had brownish blond hair and blue eyes just like Tabby, It also had on a blue dress and had purple wings and as soon as I saw it I just knew it should be given to Tabby's mom for her front yard. As soon as we got to Tabby tap I immediately went over to her and gave her the little angel and it felt so good to see Tabby's mom smile.
 At the beginning of Tabby tap before anyone started bowling, one of the bowling coaches talked and then they gave Juanita (Tabby's Mom) the microphone and she thanked everyone for all their support and donations and everything and before she stopped talking you could tell she needed a big hug, right after she gave the microphone back to the bowling coaches I went straight for a hug.Then Harold one of the coaches kicked off Tabby tap by letting Chad (Chad Tabby's fiance) Throw the first ball.
During Tabby tap we raffled off a 2 signed footballs and the first time that they called a number no one claimed it so then they pulled out another ticket and the number was 1224 Tabby's birthday and guess who had that ticket? Chad! It was the greatest feeling in the world to see Chad so happy, He wanted that ball more than anything. The second ball was raffled off and Tabby's brother won it!
I was soooo glad to see my friends show up to Tabby tap. They were so supportive and every time I felt like I was going to cry they gave me hugs and got me to smile. It was so hard to even shed a tear.
After Tabby tap when they were handing out the cash prizes for the top games I was standing over by Tabby's parents and the guy who had the top game of the night walked over and handed Juanita his prize money, after he walked away all the other people who won prize money walked over to Juanita and handed her the money they had won. It was so awesome to see people give back and help someone who really needs it. Right before everyone left these kids came over and asked if we had any bracelets left (because I had made some tribute bracelets for the event) and Tabby's mom had given one of her bracelets away but she looked at the one I made her and said "I'm sorry I can't part with this one I love it too much." That made me so happy to hear her say that.
Overall I think Tabby tap turned out really really really good. Everyone seemed to have a great time and I had a wonderful time, It Was great to see everyone smile espically Tabby's parents and Chad.
WE LOVE AND MISS YOU TABBY! <3

Fly Away Beautiful Angel!

Today was one of the hardest days of my life Tabby's funeral. I wouldn't of been able to get through it with out my girls, Kaleigh, Clara, Alisha, Hailey, & Samantha. They are my rocks. But before the service even began the news channel showed up and interviewed Tabby's parents and Our bowling coach Brenda with us bowlers right behind her and it was really hard to stand there knowing that were about to say goodbye to Tabby.

During Tabby's funeral we all held hands and comforted each other. The whole time in my head the vision of her on the news back in May of her saying "I Don't Wanna Die" replayed in my head over and over again. But I think the worst thing was every time Chad (Tabby's fiance) cried harder it made me cry even harder. I really broke down when we were seeing her body for the last time. I Wrote Tabby a letter the night before and i slipped it in her hands before they closed her casket.

We were all outside after the service and Riley was there and me and Riley have had our issues and today it felt like all those issues vanished when she came over to me and hugged me and told me that everything was gonna be alright. That really meant alot coming from her.

At the burial I didn't cry as much as I did in the service. But it was hard knowing that I'll never get to see her smiling face anymore. But I know she's in a better place and shes not suffering anymore makes me feel a little better but it still hurts.

After the service and burial we as in the team family went out to eat and it was good to spend time with the team I just wish Tabby was with us but I know she was with us in spirit.

God Please Please Take Care Of Tabby We Love Her So Much Our Beautiful Angel!

Porcelain Doll.

Today was Tabby's visitation and let me tell you it was very hard. Her boyfriend Chad hugged me when I got there and told me that Tabby would appreciate everything I did for her and let me tell you It was hard seeing him like that. Tabby's mom really made me tear up today when she told me that she loved the video and that shep showed it to all the nurses and doctors that really made me feel like I did a good thing. I'm going to miss Tabby so much, it was hard seeing her body lie in a casket. Another thing that really made me tear up was when I saw that she was wearing her prom dress that she never got to wear to prom. It makes me sad to know that she never got to have a senior year and go to junior prom or ever have a normal life. Tabby was on of a kind there will never be another Tabby. One regret that I have was that me and Tabby weren't as close as I wish we were but in gods eyes we were close enough. Tabby will always have a special place in my heart and I will never forget her not in million years. I know that me and Tabby will meet again someday. So this isn't a good bye this is a see ya later. I Love You Tabby Cat & I always will. <3

Gone But Never Ever Forgotten.

Tabby my friend who I have talked about in my last posts, Passed away today. God got tired of seeing her struggle so he came to visit and took her back to heaven. Shes in a better place now shes free from all the pain and suffering. Don't worry about her shes safe in the hands of Jesus. She will be missed by everyone, were all saddened by this but if its one thing I know Tabby would want all of us to be phappy and smiling. Tabby was a wonderful person and a great friend that i will miss alot. She's now watching over us as we live our life's. We will always wonder why she died but no one will ever know. Tabby will forever be in our hearts and will always be our guardian angel. <3

R.I.P Tabbitha Rhymer You Will Forever Be Missed.

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”
We Love You Tabby!

Never let your praying knees get lazy

The title says it all. Lately I've been praying for Tabby the girl in my last two posts. I've actually got down on my knees and prayed for her to survive, every time we get a bad update about her its like a piece of me inside just dies, I don't think I could be as positive  as I always am if we lost her. I would probably be a whole different person. I guess I care about Tabby so much is because we are so much alike were always so positive all the time. Tabby could be my twin if we looked alike. But Back to praying. I Pray every night before I get into bed. I pray that shes gets better and is able to go to school and enjoy her senior year and graduate with her class. I Still don't understand why god chose her to get this illness but whatever it is Tabby WILL make it! I miss my Tabby!

All You Need Is Faith, Hope, Love & The Abilty To Pray. .

In my last post I had told you about my friend Tabby and how shes fighting a mysterious illness and that we got some bad news and the doctors had told us to prepare for the worst. Well me and my friends didn't like that so we continued to pray and get other people to pray and keep her in their thoughts well turns out praying and hoping for the best is what we needed to do. Tabby is coming out of the medically induced nacoma and has some brain activity and is not seizing in her brain which is great news. I'm so glad that the sun is finally starting to shine for Tabby and her family. They really need good news at a time like this. I had made a video for Tabby and i came across this quote...

"when you feel like giving up remember why you held on for so long in the first place"
-Unknown.

& it reminds me so much of Tabby. Tabby is one heck of a person and the strongest person that I know she really makes think of how much I take everything for granted, I mean I could be like her stuck in a hospital not being able to live my life it really shows me how much I take my life for granted everyday and how something like that can happen at an instant...

I Love You Tabby, <3

A Bumpy Road Called Life...

Well... Its been a little over a month since I last posted. These past few days/ weeks have been super tough but I think the hardest day of them all was today... A lot happened I can tell you that... But my friend Tabby has been battling a mysterious illness for almost 7 months I feel so bad for her. The other day her doctors put her in medically induced nacoma and today they took her out of it and the doctors told us the worst possible news ever that we should prepare for the worst, I started to cry when i read the message from her boyfriends sister... I felt like a peace of my heart broke off. I hate seeing her like this it literally kills me inside..I don't want to lose her. I pray and pray for her to get better. Shes too young to deal with all this. Out of all the people in the world why her? I just don't understand. I know that god wouldn't give her something she couldn't handle. It's really hard to see someone you care about go through something like this but sometimes you have to... Well I'm going to stop writing now, I'll write more later. Bye...

College, A New Begining.

Well. It's Been About a week since ive posted... Sorry! Anyways I finally applied to college.. yeah im late on applying anyways its just community college. I'm going to take basic classes there and then transfer somewhere and take courses to become a special ed teacher. Not alot of people can handle special needs children but i feel that i can handle it. I Can't wait to start college... Well i'll post more later. (:

Holiday World!!

Well i know i just had a post a few minuites ago buttt this deserved its own post. So The day after my party my family and I went to holiday world and we had so much fun. im glad that i went and had fun. I finally got to ride the voyage, it looked so cool on tv and ever since i saw it on tv i wanted to ride it. lol We also rode the pilgrims plunge it was awesome!! im soo glad my aunt and uncle invited my family to join them. i dont think i could of had anymore fun then i did that day.

Grad / Birthday Party

Lets just say i had a great party. im so glad that my friends showed up. we had so much fun. we ended up leaving the party to go swimin at jesse and jakes. We had alot of fun. One of my bestfriends got to spend the night, and we had tons of fun. My little cousin Ryan shattered our tv so we couldnt watch our movies as planed. Overall it was a great party and im glad that everyone had a good time. For my gifts i got money, and i got a bath set from my bestie Kassi, Then from my bowling coaches Brenda and Jamie and their daughter Alisha i got a cookie cutter set and a magnet and bubbles. Alisha also brought her guitar and sung me happy birthday it was sooooo sweet, and last but not least i got a giftcard for itunes (even though i dont know what to buy. lol). so overall i had a great time. Well thats all for this post. (:

Newww Laptop

So apparently I have a new laptop but how did I get it? Well I had 255$ and i really wanted to buy something great so i asked my dad if her could see if my uncle could help me buy one so my uncle agreed to help so today they went and got me a laptop. so i did my itunes and everything and then i got a skype and i got to skype with my friend Brittany in Vermont. it was so good to talk to her i even found out my laptop has a microphone!! lol its so awesome. well its late so im going to stop writing i promise to write more soon. Night !! (:

Graduation.

Well I am now a graduate of Fern Creek. It seems like just yesterday me and my mom went to freshman orientation and i didn't know anything about high school... I'm going to miss high school soooooo much. I had met soooo many great people during high school.

High school was really great. I'm going to miss all my teachers especially Ms Dobson & Ms Witten.
I'm going to miss the bowling teams and creek crazies so much. I certainly had a great high school experience and i wouldn't of changed it for nothing. I made a ton of great friends and met some people that I absolutely love to death. I'm going to miss all my underclassmen like crazy and i want them all to know that im always here for them and that im not going anywhere. Its so hard to believe that I'm no longer a student but I'm an alumni.
High school certainly has been a crazy ride and am sorta glad that its over but i will never forget the friendships that I made, the fights between friends, the pep rally's, football games, and all the craziness of Fern Creek. I have so many memories from high school that I could go on for hours but no one wants to sit here and read all of that lol.
Well high School was an amazing experience! Here's a few pics of My Graduation!

Me & My Partner Samantha Walking. (:

Shaking Dr Barbers Hand!

Congrats Class Of 2011 You Are Now Graduates!

Me & My Diploma!

Coming to an end.

Hey I know its been awhile since Ive posted anything (Sorry). Well anyways this week is my last week as a high school student. Yes I am graduating Friday. I'm actually a little nervous but i know its nothing to worry about.
Today was senior field day and it was way too hot to do anything. They had rented inflatables but i only did one of them and I lost to one of my best friends Kaleigh. Most of the time i walked around the track and talked to my friends. then at noon we went into the school and watched movies, But I started to feel sick so i went to the nurse and went home.
Tomorrow I go back to school for the senior breakfast and slideshow and I get my senior memory book back, we also get our caps and gowns and find out our line up for graduation. I can't wait. Well i know this post was sorta short but I promise to write more later on this week.

Life.

Hey, well today Jcps came back from our spring break. Spring break was okay but im ready for the rest of the school year, I feel that i can handle anything life throws at me. But thats not the reason of this post. the reason of this post is that i have made a huge decision that i want to become closer to god, i want to go to church, i want to read the bible, i just want to grow up and i feel that that is the first step, im not really sure on how to tell everyone, i mean I've told a few people and they think its a good idea. I sure hope its a good idea. Well I'm going to stop posting for tonight. Bye. <3

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