Smiles, Tears, & Laughter.

So Its been awhile since I've posted and I'm Sorry. Well Tabby tap was last Saturday and it was really good too see every one together and happy. The day of Tabby tap my mom had bought this angel thing to stick in the ground and it looked just like Tabby, it had brownish blond hair and blue eyes just like Tabby, It also had on a blue dress and had purple wings and as soon as I saw it I just knew it should be given to Tabby's mom for her front yard. As soon as we got to Tabby tap I immediately went over to her and gave her the little angel and it felt so good to see Tabby's mom smile.
 At the beginning of Tabby tap before anyone started bowling, one of the bowling coaches talked and then they gave Juanita (Tabby's Mom) the microphone and she thanked everyone for all their support and donations and everything and before she stopped talking you could tell she needed a big hug, right after she gave the microphone back to the bowling coaches I went straight for a hug.Then Harold one of the coaches kicked off Tabby tap by letting Chad (Chad Tabby's fiance) Throw the first ball.
During Tabby tap we raffled off a 2 signed footballs and the first time that they called a number no one claimed it so then they pulled out another ticket and the number was 1224 Tabby's birthday and guess who had that ticket? Chad! It was the greatest feeling in the world to see Chad so happy, He wanted that ball more than anything. The second ball was raffled off and Tabby's brother won it!
I was soooo glad to see my friends show up to Tabby tap. They were so supportive and every time I felt like I was going to cry they gave me hugs and got me to smile. It was so hard to even shed a tear.
After Tabby tap when they were handing out the cash prizes for the top games I was standing over by Tabby's parents and the guy who had the top game of the night walked over and handed Juanita his prize money, after he walked away all the other people who won prize money walked over to Juanita and handed her the money they had won. It was so awesome to see people give back and help someone who really needs it. Right before everyone left these kids came over and asked if we had any bracelets left (because I had made some tribute bracelets for the event) and Tabby's mom had given one of her bracelets away but she looked at the one I made her and said "I'm sorry I can't part with this one I love it too much." That made me so happy to hear her say that.
Overall I think Tabby tap turned out really really really good. Everyone seemed to have a great time and I had a wonderful time, It Was great to see everyone smile espically Tabby's parents and Chad.
WE LOVE AND MISS YOU TABBY! <3

Fly Away Beautiful Angel!

Today was one of the hardest days of my life Tabby's funeral. I wouldn't of been able to get through it with out my girls, Kaleigh, Clara, Alisha, Hailey, & Samantha. They are my rocks. But before the service even began the news channel showed up and interviewed Tabby's parents and Our bowling coach Brenda with us bowlers right behind her and it was really hard to stand there knowing that were about to say goodbye to Tabby.

During Tabby's funeral we all held hands and comforted each other. The whole time in my head the vision of her on the news back in May of her saying "I Don't Wanna Die" replayed in my head over and over again. But I think the worst thing was every time Chad (Tabby's fiance) cried harder it made me cry even harder. I really broke down when we were seeing her body for the last time. I Wrote Tabby a letter the night before and i slipped it in her hands before they closed her casket.

We were all outside after the service and Riley was there and me and Riley have had our issues and today it felt like all those issues vanished when she came over to me and hugged me and told me that everything was gonna be alright. That really meant alot coming from her.

At the burial I didn't cry as much as I did in the service. But it was hard knowing that I'll never get to see her smiling face anymore. But I know she's in a better place and shes not suffering anymore makes me feel a little better but it still hurts.

After the service and burial we as in the team family went out to eat and it was good to spend time with the team I just wish Tabby was with us but I know she was with us in spirit.

God Please Please Take Care Of Tabby We Love Her So Much Our Beautiful Angel!

Porcelain Doll.

Today was Tabby's visitation and let me tell you it was very hard. Her boyfriend Chad hugged me when I got there and told me that Tabby would appreciate everything I did for her and let me tell you It was hard seeing him like that. Tabby's mom really made me tear up today when she told me that she loved the video and that shep showed it to all the nurses and doctors that really made me feel like I did a good thing. I'm going to miss Tabby so much, it was hard seeing her body lie in a casket. Another thing that really made me tear up was when I saw that she was wearing her prom dress that she never got to wear to prom. It makes me sad to know that she never got to have a senior year and go to junior prom or ever have a normal life. Tabby was on of a kind there will never be another Tabby. One regret that I have was that me and Tabby weren't as close as I wish we were but in gods eyes we were close enough. Tabby will always have a special place in my heart and I will never forget her not in million years. I know that me and Tabby will meet again someday. So this isn't a good bye this is a see ya later. I Love You Tabby Cat & I always will. <3

Gone But Never Ever Forgotten.

Tabby my friend who I have talked about in my last posts, Passed away today. God got tired of seeing her struggle so he came to visit and took her back to heaven. Shes in a better place now shes free from all the pain and suffering. Don't worry about her shes safe in the hands of Jesus. She will be missed by everyone, were all saddened by this but if its one thing I know Tabby would want all of us to be phappy and smiling. Tabby was a wonderful person and a great friend that i will miss alot. She's now watching over us as we live our life's. We will always wonder why she died but no one will ever know. Tabby will forever be in our hearts and will always be our guardian angel. <3

R.I.P Tabbitha Rhymer You Will Forever Be Missed.

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”
We Love You Tabby!

Never let your praying knees get lazy

The title says it all. Lately I've been praying for Tabby the girl in my last two posts. I've actually got down on my knees and prayed for her to survive, every time we get a bad update about her its like a piece of me inside just dies, I don't think I could be as positive  as I always am if we lost her. I would probably be a whole different person. I guess I care about Tabby so much is because we are so much alike were always so positive all the time. Tabby could be my twin if we looked alike. But Back to praying. I Pray every night before I get into bed. I pray that shes gets better and is able to go to school and enjoy her senior year and graduate with her class. I Still don't understand why god chose her to get this illness but whatever it is Tabby WILL make it! I miss my Tabby!